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Spring is in the air

Yesterday, about this time, it was near freezing outside. Today, it is currently 66 degrees. The sun is shining, and the birds are chirping. Spring is upon us. It’s time to clean the dusty, neglected places, and prepare for the warm days ahead. It’s time to service the old lawn mower and weed eater. And yes, it is time to pull Voyager out of storage, and get her tires inflated and chain lubed.

I have really let myself go this winter. I’ve put on some weight, and lost some muscle mass. It’s time to start laying down the junk food, and hitting the trails. I plan to do a lot more mountain biking this year. I’ve gotten soft riding around this beautiful, but flat and paved Greenway. I need dirt, gravel, and hills. I need to get my big ass off the couch, and into the woods.

Spring is in the air. Can you smell it?

Mission accomplished

Well, I made it through day two of my new goal setting/self-discipline thing I’m on. I barely made this one. The last goal I had for today was to blog, so, here I am. I’m sorry this is going to be a mostly pointless and quiet short of a post, but I am determined to change the way I operate, and if that means I have to throw up a few pointless blogs posts then I’m gonna do it.

This is really very new to me. I’m not used to, well… consistency. I’ve always been the kind of person who loses interest in things really quick, and seldom finishes a project. I want that to change. I need that to change.

In related news, I have almost weaned myself off of social networks and Reddit. They are truly addictive, and massively wasteful when it comes to our time and energy.

I’ll try to put a little more into the next post, so stay tuned.

Structure… shit works better with it.

I tried something new today. I’ve been trying to cultivate a little more self-discipline in my life lately, so I decided last night that I should start planning my days. The process is pretty simple. I gathered all the information I needed; my schedule, tasks that needed to get done, and then I created a folder in my Google Drive entitled: Day Plans. Next I created a doc entitled: 2013-03-11-Day-Plan. I started the doc out with a quick motivational paragraph, and then listed my goals for the day, and tasks that needed to get done in order to accomplish them. I think adding this tiny bit of structure to my life is going to help me tremendously. It seems to be working pretty good too. One of my goals for the day was to get a blog post in, and there you have it!

Enter The Chromebook

ChromeWe’re not usually this impulsive. I know I said we were going to wait until we had a little more free money, but hey… the dude at Bestbuy made us an offer we couldn’t refuse. As bad as I know it sounds, we had planned on only stopping by the store to “showroom” the Chromebooks, so we could buy one online at a latter date. I know, we pure evil. Anyway, the Bestbuy guy told us he had a Chromebook that was discounted due to a broken seal on the box. It had never been used! And, on top of it being discounted nearly $30, he also marked it down another 10%. How could we so no to that?

So, Denice and I are now the proud owners of a Google Chromebook. Well, Denice more than myself. We got it for the express purpose of Denice’s school work. I still have our trusty old Linux powered Sony Vaio to keep me company.

I’ll do another post later on with my first impressions of the Chromebook. Denice is engrossed in its Googly powers right now, and I dare not pry it away from her. I love watching her play with her new toy!

The cycle of self-harm

Have you ever found yourself staring at a blank screen, trying desperately to think of something interesting to write? As a blogger, this is a familiar position for me. I try to share the things in my life that I think you may find interesting, as honestly as I can, but tonight is one of those night when I just feel like throwing in the towel and admitting the apparent truth… I live a pretty boring life.

I had a very enlightening talk with Denice tonight. She has helped me to see that although I have believed that I escaped the trauma and psychological abuse of my formative years unscathed,  that may not be the truth. I live my life in fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, and fear of rocking the boat. I have some pretty big dreams. I want to “be the change that I want to see in the world,” but the price of that change always seems to be too high for me.

I have become a creature of habits, and most of them bad. I habitually isolate myself from people for fear that once they know the real me, I will be rejected. I habitually work at a repetitive job that a trained monkey could do. I habitually eat foods that I know are slowly killing. I habitually crash on the couch and watch TV or other forms of passive entertainment when I know I would be more fulfilled by doing something creative. I habitually deny myself sufficient sleep and exercise which in turn severely limits my energy… causing the whole cycle of self-harm to start all over again. This cannot go on. This must change!

When I reach the end of my life, I do not want to full of regret. I don’t know exactly what I’m going to do about all of this, but I know I must act. I must act now, while the flickering flame of my initiative still has heat to burn.

Neighborhood drunk chick

Drunk ChickYesterday was Denice’s birthday. I took her out to eat, and we had a really good time. We were in our separate vehicles since we both just got off work. Before we left for home Denice told me that she was going to go to her choir rehearsal tonight. This was good because I needed a little time to get her birthday decorations set up at the house. So, I race home, knowing that the dogs have been inside for quiet a while, and needed to be let out to do their business. When I arrived at my house it was just getting dark. I noticed a strange girl on my neighbors porch. She was banging on the door. I immediately sensed that this was bad news, and tried to covertly make my way inside. Well, she saw me. The next thing I know this girl is stumbling my way, shouting, “Hay! Hay you!” Being the boy scout that I am, I couldn’t just make a dash for the house and lock the door behind me, so I let her make her slow and uncoordinated way to me. Upon smelling her breath it was apparent that she was heavily intoxicated.

The girl was in her early twenties, by my estimation, and very clingy. She was practically falling all over me, asking me for a ride to the gas station up the street. This did not look good. However, I wasn’t going to leave her to her own devices. Once I summed up the situation, I had planned on calling the cops as soon as I was able to get inside the house. Someone like her did not need to be stumbling all over  the place, right next to busy road. She was obviously a danger to herself. So, I told her to wait by my truck, and that I would be right back. Yeah, that didn’t work. She followed me all the way down the driveway, and was leaning on me from behind while I was trying to unlock the door. Of course you know what happens next. Fate wouldn’t have it any other way.

Denice pulls in the driveway to the sight of me and some strange female leaning on my shoulders, about to enter our house. I don’t think it could have looked any worse. I maneuvered my way out of her unwanted embrace and scurried over to Denice. she was like, “What the hell is going on?” I quickly rattled off the details of what just happened. She was shocked, but of course she believed me. Thank God my wife knows me better than that!

Anyway, drunk girl eventually got frustrated that I wasn’t complying with her demands to taxi her down the street, so she stumbled away. We called and alerted the cops to her drunken antics, and never seen her again.

The moral of the story is: drunk chicks are not to be fucked with. They are bad news on many levels. Just stay in the car, and call the cops.

Denice’s recovery, and some other misc. updates.

This week is kind of a first for Denice and myself. We are actually off work, together for a change. Of course it’s not under the best of circumstances. For the next six weeks, Denice is going to be out of work, recovering from ligament reconstruction surgery in her right foot. She just had the surgery a couple of days ago, so she is still in a lot of pain, and not able to get around so well. While this mostly sucks, it is giving us a chance to get a little bit of a vacation together. I am finding that I actually enjoy caring for people when they are hurt. I think it goes back to the whole ‘sheep dog’ thing. It makes me feel good to ensure that Denice is well taken care of when she is vulnerable. Also, my in-laws are coming here to help out for a while. This is great. It will give Denice some much-needed time with her family, who is normally on the other side of the continent.

In other news, my studies in natural law, post-scarcity economics, and permaculture continue. I have been absorbing every piece of information related to these subjects that I can get my hands on. My next reading assignment is a book by Buckminster Fuller called ‘Critical Path.’ I’ve had to do an inter-library loan to get a copy since my local library didn’t have it in their selection, so I’ll just have to wait till it gets here. In the mean time I’ve been trying to find information on the consensus decision-making process. I’ve located a number of resources on Youtube, but nothing that gets into the kind of detail I’m looking for.

And, speaking of Youtube, I haven’t forgotten that I have a channel, and a severely neglected channel at that. I do plan to get into making videos again in the near future, possibly within the next few days. I’m trying to streamline all of the stuff I put out on the Internet. I don’t have time to do a lot of editing on things. I’m not Onision. I just a guy who likes to share his thoughts, and I’m hoping that my genuineness (is that even a word?) will be enough to compensate. Stay tuned.

That’s all for now.

 

Another Rainy Saturday

I’m sitting here on the couch right now. It’s Saturday, and it’s raining outside. I have the window open. I love watching the rain. It has such a pleasant sound. Of course I have a snoring beagle in the seat next to me, but the rain still sounds nice. Denice is asleep. I’m trying not to worry about her. I know the way she is behaving is perfectly normal for having just lost a close loved one. I just wish I could make it better somehow.

I’ve been spending the morning doing repetitive tasks on the computer while listening to ASMR stuff on Youtube. I’m reorganizing our file structure to make it more user-friendly. Most people would find it mind-numbingly boring, and it is, but it is also relaxing. I’m working on our photos right now. They are a mess. I have to get them cleaned up first so we can get all the new ones that we got from her dad scanned in.

I finished the first Fifty Shades book a few days ago, and now Denice is reading it. I thought it was a little strange that she wanted to read something like that while she is grieving for her father, but now that I think about it… it is a pretty good distraction. I’ll probably do a review on the series when I get the other two books read.

Suddenly upon us

Denice and I are in Kentucky right now. Her dad just died. He was in the process of fighting cancer, but had been doing pretty good. We were caught completely off guard when he suddenly met his end via a massive heart attack this Thursday. There was none of the traditional symptoms of a heart attack, or at least none that were recognized. It is a very sad time for us now, but we are thankful that death for him came swiftly and with little suffering.

We make our plans, and we ready ourselves for a future that we don’t even know for sure that we have. Sometimes it is sudden. Some people don’t get a chance to go on the big vacation that they were looking forward to, to put the story of their life on paper, or even to say a simple goodbye to their love ones. Suddenly.

I don’t know if I have the rest of my life to do all the things that I have planned. Hell, I don’t even know with any certainty if I will get to open my eyes again after I shut them when I lay down to sleep tonight. We all feel like we have time. We all feel invincible, but we are not.

If there is anything I will take away from this, it will be to treasure every second I have with my family and friends, and to live life with a sense of urgency. It is a travesty to waste this wonderful gift of life. We should live every day as if it were our last, for we have no way of knowing if it is not. If there is something you want to do… do it! If there is someone who you love… tell them! If there is a change you want to see in the world… then for God’s sake BE IT!

Vegan or Bust!

Much to my horror, I have discovered what it feels like to have a hemorrhoid. It sucks! Actually, it is like being tormented by miniature devils inside my anus. This is my punishment for not sticking to a plant-based/whole foods diet. If I had been consuming enough plant fiber as opposed to pancakes… I wouldn’t have blown out my rear while torquing out a stink pickle in a constipated furry that no man should have to suffer through.

My God! When will I learn? When will I fully commit myself to this healthy lifestyle? This is getting really old. I’m going to have to get my act together, and get it together quick! Tomorrow, I am beginning again. It’s vegan or bust for me!